Scared of the dark

Man is, 

Afraid of the unknown, 

I don't know what the night brings, 

When I'm alone

                The lamp's on, 

It's always been that way, 

It's a way, I hope that things, 

Will always stay

And I'm embarrassed to say, 

That I'm still scared of the dark at my age, 

It's not the monsters under my bed or in the wardrobe, 

I just feel alone in the dark, 

With the lights off and eyes closed

Now the world knows, 

The world knows

In darkness, 

I see shapes and beings on the walls

And in the corners of the ceiling 

Fears surround me, 

Like an army of ninja ghosts, 

Waiting for me to sleep, 

It's when they attack the most

That's when they attack the most

And I'm embarrassed to say, 

That I'm still scared of the dark at my age, 

It's not the monsters under my bed or in the wardrobe, 

I just feel alone in the world, 

With lights off and eyes closed

Now the world knows

The world knows

And I'm embarrassed to say, 

That I'm still scared of the dark at my age, 

It's not the monsters under my bed or in the wardrobe, 

I just feel alone in the world, 

With lights off and eyes closed

Man is, 

Afraid of the unknown

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/l/lower_than_atlantis/#share

Reflections

if you know me you will know I love driving, even tho my van is a sludgy, 14 year old beast I still love the feeling of freedom I get from driving her. Last night I decided to go for a drive on my own, to fetch supplies (chrisps and drinks). It was rather dark and the street lights do an amazing job of lighting the way for you, but as I headed out the back of Ilkeston I was driving along a road without street lights, the darkness covered the intire landscape. I prefer night driving, I don't know what it is but I love it, the sense of being in the middle of nowhere with just the lights of the van to guide me.
I had my full beams on and the lights reflected on the cats eyes in the centre on the road, and it made me realise that, even in the darkness there is still something to guide me, and it really related to my relationship with God at the moment, I feel dormant in my faith, not a lot is going off in my life, but like the cats eyes in the road, God will reflect the light I shine living out my life, and guide me in the right direction even through the darkness. All I have to do is shine my light!

Today I got an iPad, so hopefully this will mean more blogs and more photos!

Light

Band!

This is My band Early To The Vineyard, I joined them in Late 2009, This is us playing our Latest Gig at the Running Horse in Nottingham on the 28th January 2012.

A Little Change

Ok, so I have decided I'm going to change how I use this Blog, I'm not just going to use it to talk about God, or havinga rant or using lyrics from songs I listen to, I'm going to start adding photos and bitsand bobs, of things that happen in my life and things that inspire me. I'm not a very good photographer so some photos may be stolen from those with better skills than myself, but I do promise that i will only use them if they relate to something going off in my life!

Thoughts

Today, so far has been boring, I've been really lucky to get 3days off work, and today is the third. but so far I have failed to do anything productive, apart from play GT5 on the PS3. I've been alone too, as Abi is back at uni today. beeing alone is nice but it makes the time drag, and makes the day seem endless. All this time alone is getting to my head now though, thoughts and feelings are running wild in my head as a loose myself in a race of thought. some of these thoughts, I could do without. These last few weeks, I haven't felt to stable, silly things just get to me and get me worked up and upset and angry, but I don't know why? I know I have a short temper and I have been working on it, but silly little things seem to be able to annoy me so much. I keep having these thoughts of 'what if?'.

For some reason I've always been one of those people who look back on life and think, 'What if?' its really annouying becuase it digs up buried feelings from the past, and I let them get to me. I don't know where this is heading so I'm goona go before.... I dunno, incase I say something  I don't want to.

Where am I?

I don't know where I am. I'm lost in this sea of faces. Burning Bridges!

Now I can say, Now I can Feel

Maybe now I can say
Maybe now I can feel
I know it's out of my hands
You said you would but I don't know if I can
Two weeks of hiding from the sun
Night Train should get me there in time
And I would breathe eventually
If you could tell me now
We won't have to wait
Maybe now I can say
Maybe now I can feel
It's going out of my head
You said nothing but I know what you meant
Two weeks of hiding from the sun
You looked in my eyes
Thought it was better left unsaid
And I could breathe eventually
You've always showed me the beautiful
We won't have to wait

Another Sad Song

Flashback to 1999,
It's the summer,
Not a cloud in the sky.
Present day,
Things have changed,
Summer's over
And it rains here every day.

Don't cry,
We all make mistakes from time to time.
Unfortunately, for me,
Being me was mine.

Don't cry,
We all make mistakes from time to time.
Unfortunately, for me,
Being me was mine.

But how so?
I'm only 21 years old.
I used to be so happy,
Now here's another sad song by a sad boy
Playing the saddest chords he knows.

Don't cry,
We all make mistakes from time to time.
Unfortunately, for me,
Being me was mine.