It's Been A While

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
since I could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while
since I could call you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
since I could say that I wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

Its been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
and it's been awhile
since I said I'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since I said I'm sorry

Yeah, I'll miss you when I'm gone
I'll sing you a sad song tonight
And I'll miss you when I'm gone
I'll sing you a sad song

One more chance to get this right
One more chance to get it right
One more chance to get this right
But you'll never get it right

I know you'll never get it right
You only take this so far
Then leave it all behind
So tonight I'm making up my mind
You know you make this so hard to leave it all behind

Step up to the plate to play the game
Save yourself and quit to play it safe

If Jesus is God, Was He perfect?

Can God feel pain?, If we sin does he hurt?

I spent this morning with a couple of people from church, looking at what it means to be a soldier within he Salvation Army. Looking at the Articals of war, Which You sing on becoming a Sinoior Soldier within the Salvo, I supose its like a Mission Statement, It lays out what we believe and how we should live our lives as a desciple of God in the Salvo. I signed the Articals of war 2 days after my 18th birthday. A great deal has changed in my life since then, So it was good to go through the 'AoW' and relate it to my lie now. Most of it sat very comfortably with me as they are values and ideals that I still Try to live by.

There was one Artical that did play with me slightly and got me thinking....

'We Believe That In The Person Of Jesus Christ The Devine And Human Natures Are United, So That He Is Truely And Properly God And Truely And Properly Man'

so, Jesus, is God! God is human! God is perfect, a perfect being. but being human must have meant that he felt pain? Emotion?

Jesus was a carpenter, and as someone pointed out this morning, all Carpenters have hit thier thumb with a hammer, and trust me, we have, and it hurts! ALOT! so did Jesus hit his thumb with a hammer? did he feel the pain? Did he feel the pain on the cross as he wept? Did he get head aches? did he become ill?

I'm loving the paths of though that I'm going along at the mo, Did My God feel my pain? The emotions that I've felt? the joy that I've shared. The more i think about it and talk about it the more I realise My God Is Human!