Build your Kingdom here!

Come set Your rule and reign
In our hearts again
Increase in us we pray
Unveil why we're made
Come set our hearts ablaze with hope
Like wildfire in our very souls
Holy Spirit come invade us now
We are Your Church
We need Your power
In us

We seek Your kingdom first
We hunger and we thirst
Refuse to waste our lives
For You're our joy and prize
To see the captive hearts released
The hurt; the sick; the poor at peace
We lay down our lives for Heaven's cause
We are Your church
We pray revive
This Earth

Build Your kingdom here
Let the darkness fear
Show Your mighty hand
Heal our streets and land
Set Your church on fire
Win this nation back
Change the atmosphere
Build Your kingdom here
We pray

Unleash Your kingdom's power
Reaching the near and far
No force of hell can stop
Your beauty changing hearts
You made us for much more than this
Awake the kingdom seed in us
Fill us with the strength and love of Christ
We are Your church
We are the hope
On Earth

3 years, a few weeks ago.

I wrote this blog on the 19th Feb and some how managed not to post it, but i guess better late than never!

Tomorrow marks my 3 year relationship with Abi. And I have to say its been a pretty amazing time. Earlier I asked Abi to describe our time together in 3 words, and her response was 'up and down' which if I was honest I would agree with. I don't think anyone can have a healthy relationship without some downs. But I guess the only thing that matters is that we get through the down times and come out the other end together. I consider my self to be really lucky with Abi in the fact that we both respect each other, we love each other, we live together, we spend a lot of time together and we also worship together.

A lot has happened in these three years, I got a new job then quit and started my joinery business again, I have shared new experiences with the band, gigging and recording. Made new friends, lost old friends, brought a rust heap of van that costs me a fortune, come into money and lost money. Took up responsibility of leading my church's worship group. But there is one thing that hasn't changed much and that's my faith in God, well it has changed in the way I pray, praise or worship him but my faith has never wandered. Yeah there have been times when Iv felt a little lost, or unsure but deep down I have always known that God loves me. God has made these years a challenge and forced me out of my comfort zone, but it's great, as uncomfortable as I may feel, the experiences and time spent with God has been nothing but Amazing! And I look forward to the years to come, the challenges, the opportunities and the hope!

Counting Sheep

I'm sorry for feeling sorry for myself 

Feeling helpless could be helpful with a little help 

Hopelessly hopeful that my dreams will come true 

It's hard to focus when it's only day dreaming I do 

I'd be thoughtlessly thoughtless if I thought it would work 

But I've been working on my thought process, now my brain hurts 

In bed, wide eyed, awake, 

I pray to God, if he exists, my mind he'll take 

Never any sleep between these sheets 

But I've been counting sheep for weeks 

Inside my head, when I'm in bed 

Maybe I'll sleep when I'm dead 

Fighting the night by writing lyrics describing the act of sleep depriving 

Fighting the night by writing lyrics describing the act of sleep depriving 

I'll go insane if I dont get some rest 

Why am I emotional when I'm motionless 

Lately it's been getting later 'til I drift away 

But I know fourty winks later I'll be fast awake 

Getting bored of bordering the state of conciousness 

I'm half asleep the whole time, three quarters at best 

Down I lie to try and get myself some shut-eye 

To no surprise I find my eyelids are avoiding my eyes, I'm tired 

Never any sleep between these sheets 

But I've been counting sheep for weeks 

Inside my head, when I'm in bed 

Maybe I'll sleep when I'm dead 

Fighting the night by writing lyrics describing the act of sleep depriving 

Scared of the dark

Man is, 

Afraid of the unknown, 

I don't know what the night brings, 

When I'm alone

                The lamp's on, 

It's always been that way, 

It's a way, I hope that things, 

Will always stay

And I'm embarrassed to say, 

That I'm still scared of the dark at my age, 

It's not the monsters under my bed or in the wardrobe, 

I just feel alone in the dark, 

With the lights off and eyes closed

Now the world knows, 

The world knows

In darkness, 

I see shapes and beings on the walls

And in the corners of the ceiling 

Fears surround me, 

Like an army of ninja ghosts, 

Waiting for me to sleep, 

It's when they attack the most

That's when they attack the most

And I'm embarrassed to say, 

That I'm still scared of the dark at my age, 

It's not the monsters under my bed or in the wardrobe, 

I just feel alone in the world, 

With lights off and eyes closed

Now the world knows

The world knows

And I'm embarrassed to say, 

That I'm still scared of the dark at my age, 

It's not the monsters under my bed or in the wardrobe, 

I just feel alone in the world, 

With lights off and eyes closed

Man is, 

Afraid of the unknown

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/l/lower_than_atlantis/#share

Reflections

if you know me you will know I love driving, even tho my van is a sludgy, 14 year old beast I still love the feeling of freedom I get from driving her. Last night I decided to go for a drive on my own, to fetch supplies (chrisps and drinks). It was rather dark and the street lights do an amazing job of lighting the way for you, but as I headed out the back of Ilkeston I was driving along a road without street lights, the darkness covered the intire landscape. I prefer night driving, I don't know what it is but I love it, the sense of being in the middle of nowhere with just the lights of the van to guide me.
I had my full beams on and the lights reflected on the cats eyes in the centre on the road, and it made me realise that, even in the darkness there is still something to guide me, and it really related to my relationship with God at the moment, I feel dormant in my faith, not a lot is going off in my life, but like the cats eyes in the road, God will reflect the light I shine living out my life, and guide me in the right direction even through the darkness. All I have to do is shine my light!

Today I got an iPad, so hopefully this will mean more blogs and more photos!

Light